I'm not good enough...

and I never will be.
I'm so sick of this town.
And everything.

I miss not having something to look forward to.
I just wanna be home.
I wanna be where I am happy.

I just wanna be happy.
So bad.

I feel so cut off from the world right now.
I need something.
I need someone.
Anything.

I need to feel alive again.
Please.
I'm reaching out and no one is helping me.

What do I do now?
God, please. Help me through this, now. I need you most.