So just now...

I realized that I haven't been happy in the longest time.
Why can't I find happiness?

When will it be my turn?

I look around, at all these people, who love their lives and I just don't understand how.
I'm so sick of the same damn thing over and over again.
The same routine, same people. Everything.

I want change.
I want something more.
New people.

I hate change, but at the same time, I need it.
So much.
I need it to live.
I need it to find happiness.

I'm not gonna change completely.
But I'm gonna change some things.
I have to.

Otherwise, I'll never be happy.