1. I don't even know what to say anymore about you. I wish you knew. I wish you cared. I think I just have this picture set out in my head that one day we will actually be together, and you will realize that we are supposed to be like that. But I know deep down it won't happen, and I keep trying to tell myself that. But I can't give up on you, I can't give up on that dream. Its not even a secret anymore. I wish I could move on and get over you, but its just to damn hard. And I hate you so much for that. Because you have so much of me already and its so easy for you to just break my heart, and you don't even know.
2. Not a day goes by that I don't think of you and how there will always be a part of me that hates my mom for taking me away from you. I miss you more and more everyday. I think about when I first met you and how we used to hang out all the time and we always had fun no matter what we were doing. I love you so much, and I fear everyday that you will one day move on and stop talking to me.
3. I love you so much, and you tend to make things better for me, but I worry about you all the time, and some of the things you do get on my nerves so bad. I wish I could teach you something, I wish you would take my advice and listen. But I know you better than that, and you listen to no one but yourself. You are so hard headed.
4. I used to confide in you all the time, when I saw you. I told you so much. And you always were there to cheer me up. You made most of my Friday and Saturday nights. When I think of Maryland, I can't help but see your face. I hope that you will remember me. And we'll always still somewhat talk, because there is just something about you that puts me at a certain peace that no one else can give to me. I miss seeing you all the time. I hate the fact that I'm so far away and things are so different now. And when I think of you and all those old times I can't help but get really depressed.
5. I got to close to you when you came back into my life, and now we don't talk anymore. It makes me so sad, especially when I know you don't care as much as me. I miss you. I miss having someone to talk to. Someone who just listened to me and maybe didn't understand but made me feel better about things. I wish we could move past this and be friends again. I want you to be in my life.
6. If it wasn't for you, I wouldn't even have this life. I wouldn't know so many people, and I wouldv'e never enjoyed Maryland so much. You brought out the best in me, and I miss that we stopped being friends for so long. I'm glad we are good now but I hate that I'm not around because I really do hate not having you in my life anymore.
7. I tell you everything and I'm so glad you know how it feels. I'm so glad you've been in almost every situation as me and you know how to handle them. I crave your advice and I know you'll always be there for me. So thank you. I honestly look up to you and trust in you to hold my secrets. You don't understand how many things I tell you that I would tell no one else, because well, they just haven't seen it and been through it to understand. When I feel lost, you are there to help me find my way home, and as much as I hate Ohio, you make me feel like I have a reason to be here. I'm glad I met you and I hope you know I love you.
8. I'm glad you're in my life. You are really the only dad I've ever had and I hope you know I think of you that way. As much as we fight, I know that you'll always be there for me, just like you always have been. I really appreciate the things you do, especially because I know how badly you bust your ass all week, it means a lot to me and I'm sorry I don't really show it. If I ever have a major problem and no one to talk to, I will confide in you, because you always have been there to give me good advice. I love you and I hope you know that.
9. You've put me so much. To hell and back. Taught me so much. And as much as I hate you for it, I love you so much. I feel like I know how to handle so much, because of you. You've prepared me well for the future. You've shown me that life is not as simple as people put it out to be. You've taught me the truth and showed me reality. I know that you'll always be there for me, no matter what. The one that will be there when no one else is. You are my best friend and as much as we fight, which is pretty often, I love you more than you could ever know. Thank you for everything.
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